Even in the Midst

In earthly time, it's been two months. For you, it hasn't even been seconds. You are radiant, whole, beautiful, at peace, reunited, and most amazingly, fully connected to God.

Here on earth we carry on, but feel the void where your life once lived.

As much as I tried to delay, grief came calling. I kept pushing it back, trying to get all the things completed before feeling. But that's not how God wired us - wired me. So I feel all the feelings - at times gutted, overwhelmed, ready for my own heavenly reuniting.

Yet, in the midst, there are tiny joys and rest swirled in with paperwork, anxiety and waiting.

Reflecting on all God has already accomplished, I am in awe. Working on remembering - reminding myself the other to-dos that seem will never resolve will one day be victories.

And in God there is only victory. In the midst of it all, He is my constant, my

- continual peace

- sufficiency

- hope

- strength

- song

Teach me to trust you all the more, even here, even now, even in the midst of circumstances. You are the steady ground beneath my feet, I will not be dismayed.

The Lord gives strength to his people, the Lord blesses his people with peace. Psalm 29:11